Freedom

Why is it that we are scared of being alone, however, we embrace being independent and proud of doing so? Talking about it with some people made me realize that it's a great feeling! "Independence". To other people, I'm not sure if they even know what it means. Enjoying a lifestyle and appreciating it, is a whole different life. That is what I feel. I totally enjoy being alone and living alone. I enjoy the fact that I can come home and turn the air conditioner on to full. But, I also imagine the past partners in my life and how things could be different if we eventually hooked up. That's the story of my life....
I am not scared, yet fearful of loneliness....
Not sad, yet frightened of total happiness...
Not insecure, but afraid of commitment....
Not guilty, but afraid of too much selfishness....

I have learned so much living in Korea. I embrace the chance to live in a place that has allowed me to live as free as I do and also to meet some great people! I love this line from a book that I read before by J. Krishnamurti.

Freedom can only come naturally, not through wishing,
wanting or longing. To come upon it the mind has to learn to look at life,
without the bondage of time, for freedom lies beyond the field of
conciousness.